following the path of life
sometimes it gets so hard for me to express myself. i have all these feelings and emotions stirred in my head, in my heart and for some reason, I cannot articulate them.
I'm lonely. Yesterday would have been Jose and my 21 month anniversary. It kills me that we aren't together anymore. The man that I thought I would love forever has been taken from me. I'm lonely and scared.
My life is changing rapidly. I try to stay busy, to keep myself occupied because the pain takes over me when my mind is on what used to be. I can't even bring myself to wonder what will be for fear that once again, I will be let down.
Life is leading me on a unbeaten road. I'm scared and lonely and not wanting to press forward.
But I know in the back of my mind, that is exactly what I have to do.