loving me for me
The lyrics to this song relate to me in so many ways. Everytime I listen to it, it takes all I can do not to break down and cry. Cry for a lot of things, what I'm missing in my life, what I want in my life, what I need. The things in my life that I used to have, and best of all, the the way that I used to feel.
Christina Aguilera
"Loving Me For Me"
People ask if I'm in love with you/ Because I'm sitting here with your picture/ And smiling to myself/ I'm kinda lost in my own thoughts of you/ My heart speaks before my mind thinks through/ And I blush as I say yes
This verse makes me think of how Jose used to make me feel, in the beginning, when I was falling in love with him, and was so thrilled by the concept of loving someone. I would lay in my bed for hours, thinking of him, thinking about spending time with him. I would talk to him constantly and it was just this incredible feeling when you never want to let the person go, you want to hold on to them forever and stay by their side for the rest of your life.
What a feeling of vulnerability coming over me/ And I'm feeling weak and I can't speak/ Never thought I'd give in so willingly to a human being/ With abilities to set me free/ Free, make me be me/Makes me want to say
I remember when I first started to like him, how scared I felt that I would give in to the feelings in my heart. I didn't want to love again, I was scared to love again. But when I gave in to my feelings and let my heart take control of everything, I began to be a different person. I was more loving, more caring, more compassionate. I was less worried if he would break my heart and more enjoying the love that he was giving me. I turned in to the type of person that I wanted to be: a person who had become engulfed in love. The only bad thing about being so in love was that I lost sight of many things.
Your lips, your love, your smile, your kiss/ I must admit it's a part of me/ You please me, complete me, believe me/ Like a melody/ Your soul, your flow, your youth, your truth is simply proof/
We were meant to be/ But the best quality thats hookin' me/ Is that you're loving me for me
He was the first person that I fell in love with that I let see the real me, with my flaws, my pain, my emotional baggage. I let him see the truth about my life and my past. When he told me that he loved me, that he was falling even deeper in love with me, after everything that he learned about me, everything that he continued to learn about me, I knew he was loving me for who and what I was and still am. I knew that he had to love me with my flaws, my qualities both good and bad.
People ask why I'm in love with you/ Well, let me start by saying/ You got my heart by just being who you are/ And what we got is between me and you/ It doesn't matter about the money I make/
Or what I do or that I'm a star
People would ask me all the time what I saw in Jose, what made me love him in the first place. No one understood that it was more than what people saw on the outside. I saw something inside of him that I couldn't ever imagine anyone else understanding. When we were together, when he was holding me, the only thing that mattered was him and I and the happiness that was there.
Unconditionally you're there for me/ Undeniably you inspire me, spiritually, so sweet/ This is meaningful, is incredible, pleasurable, unforgettable/ The way I feel, so sweet/ Makes me want to say
I would call him at three o'clock in the morning, tell him, please come get me, my parents are fighting, I'm scared. He would come. I would call him anytime I needed him, I needed his strength and unconditionally, he would be there.
Your lips, your love, your smile, your kiss/ I must admit it's a part of me
You please me, complete me, believe me/ Like a melody/ Your soul, your flow, your youth, your truth is simply proof/ We were meant to be/ But the best quality thats hookin' me/Is that you're loving me for me
Every part of his beauty, of his love was from his head to his toes. I loved every inch of his being. It would actually hurt because of all the love I had for him at times. But in the end, what made me love him the most, is how much he loved me for who I am.
Its so amazing how something so sweet/
Has come and rearranged my life/ I've been kissed by destiny/ Oh, heaven came and saved me/ An angel was placed at my feet/ This isn't ordinary, he's loving me for me
Never before had someone accepted me, with everything, and loved me unconditionally. Through thick and thin he was there when I was sad, or happy. We fought, we cried, we suffered. But I love him. That's all that ever matters is love. I always felt like he was heaven-sent to me, someone to help me appreciate love, to appreciate life, and to learn about the true me inside.
Stripped of all make up, no need for fancy clothes/ No cover ups, push ups/ With him, I dont have to put on a show/
He loves every freckle, every curve, every inch of my skin/ Fulfilling me entirely, taking all of me in/ He's real,he's honest, he's loving me for me
When I felt I looked my worst, he loved me the most. I was myself, the Megan that few people in this lifetime have met, have loved. And above everything, he loved me for me.
